From the Middle
Some days feel really hard. I’m not sure what else to say. Things with Dot are good, but also we are trying to navigate this mysterious allergy issue. An issue that is exacerbating the already ever looming question of weight gain for her. My milk supply is dropping, probably because of stress, which in turn creates greater Ovamounts of stress.
I was laying in bed praying last night after getting into an argument with my husband, and God felt so far away in that moment. And if I am honest, He still feels a little out of reach today.
Please don’t get me wrong—I know He is not, and I am so grateful that I can rest on that knowledge. No matter how far God feels, I do know that He is near. But that doesnt necessarily make the feeling easier. Or make the overwhelm disappear. Today I dont really have encouragement or a nicely packaged lesson. Just the reality that this can be a lot. and it’s okay to sit with that, acknowledge it, and even be a little daunted.